Listening to the song “This” by Darius Rucker as I sit on the beach. It’s 80 degrees today, sunny with a perfect breeze. There are those moments when you sit and think about how every single thing that’s ever happened has led you into that perfect present moment you’re living in. There have been so many times in my life that I’ve felt like I’ve been in detrimental situations and nothing good would ever come out of it and I would never move on, and then all the sudden I blinked my eyes and I’m here. All of the bad things mixed together with all of the good things, and a little drive and motivation led me to graduating college and taking time to live on my own in paradise. It’s really incredible. It’s already going by so fast, so I’m soaking up the time- and the sun.
The first few days were really rough. I freaked out, looked at plane tickets home, and completely doubted my decision and honestly felt stupid for ever doing it. After giving it a little time and getting into somewhat of a routine, I settled down and started feeling happy. It’s actually really hard not to be happy here- shocking right? I’m still working on logistics and I’m definitely not sure when I’m going to be home. I haven’t planted roots but I’m digging my toes into the sand.
All of the things that I’ve missed, like failed math classes, dresses I’ve cried over not fitting in to, boys who broke my heart, estranged family, losing a parent… all the times I’ve been hurt… it led me to a one way ticket to an island, listening to country music on the beach in the middle of January.
It’s not all rainbows and butterflies, but I’m not going to lie- it’s pretty damn close.