This is the week! On Thursday morning, my best friend Kerri & I will be headed to St. John for a full 12 days! I am so excited to finally meet up with people I’ve been talking to for the past few months, to sign my lease, to go to my job interviews, and to just enjoy the island and share my love of STJ with my best friend. It will be amazing.
But. In preparation for this week, I’ve been thinking about the sacrifices that have to happen for my vacation and my move. One of the biggest ones, the one that I’ve been dreading, happens on Wednesday. My hedgehog Koko, will go to her new foster home. I thought about just getting someone to watch her while I’m on vacation, and then keep her with me for the month before my move, but it’s really just not fair to move an animal around so much. So, on Wednesday, Koko will be moving to Maryland to live with her foster mom for the next year. Let me tell you- it is going to SUCK. I’ve always been the judgey person that gets pissed off when someone gives up their animal for a selfish reason, but here I am! I registered Koko as an emotional support animal, so she could technically come with me, but I know in my heart that I can’t put that kind of stress on a tiny little thing. It’s too far, it’s too hot, there aren’t any vets…it’s just too much. So I held the tears back, searched for a good fit, and luckily found the perfect place for her to go. It is going to be so damn hard to drop her off and walk away knowing I very well may never see her again, she is a year and a half old and hedgehogs normally live around 3-7 years. My first one lived to be 1 year 4 months.
Placing Koko with a foster mom is a sacrifice that I have to make in order to pursue my dream. I don’t want to leave her, but I don’t want to give up on this. I don’t know if I’ll have another opportunity to move to the islands and this is one of the things I have to say goodbye to in order to say hello to something else. There aren’t many things you can do in your life without making some sort of sacrifice, and it takes a lot to figure out if they are worth it. I’m really not sure if they will be worth it for me, but I am going to figure that out.
There are a lot more sacrifices to come when I make the move, like not seeing my friends and family for such an extended period of time, being away for holidays and my birthday, and letting go of someone I love. It is going to be so hard, the hardest thing I’ve ever done- no doubt. There are just times in life when everything changes, and I have to make room for that change and all it will bring me. Wednesday is going to SUCK. Hopefully touching down in the islands on Thursday afternoon will make it a little easier.
So here’s to you Koko, thank you for the year and a half of happiness, adorable pictures, grumpy bubblebaths, conversation starters, and love that you have brought me. Thanks for being my girl, I will miss you more than I can imagine.